ERRONEOUS WAY TO LOVE pt34

The next evening, Emmanuel was in our
house as if someone alerted him of what we
discovered. He came straight to my room,
sat on the bed and stared at me nervously.
I sat up and stared back at him with a
ferocious look, breathing heavily as i tried
so hard to control my emotions.
“Dearie please calm down, the love i have
for you is very sincere, listen to me darling,

please listen to me” he pleaded nervously.
“You are just so heartless. You thought you
could hide such a big scandal from me
didn’t you, or have you cooked up another
lie, common spin it out” i said angrily. He
shuddered as my words hit him hard,
forcing him to look down remorsefully.
“I couldn’t get myself to tell you about it
because i was very scared of your reaction,
i couldn’t risk losing you over a silly
mistake” he murmured earnestly, “the girl
was a mistake and i have nothing to do
with the mother anymore, please believe
me. It was only a one night stand i regret
ever doing, please don’t judge me over it.
Judge me for who i’m and not for who i
was please” he begged,
“I want to see the little girl and her mother.
I want to see them before i say anything
else to you” i requested seriously. His
hands shook as he tried to hold my waist,
he breathed deeply and stared at me
curiously.
“Don’t tell me you are already changing
your mind over us?” he asked with a
coloured face. I scoffed and looked away.
“I’m not happy with you and i have nothing
else to say till i see your little daughter and
her mum” I concluded bitterly.
“This is so unfair Mary, why do you insist
on seeing them? I can’t let you see them, i
just can’t” he murmured sadly, while i
forced out a dry smile.
I demanded to see the girl and her mother
because i wanted to get first hand
information, concerning the level of
relationship they enjoy with him. Moreover i
really couldn’t bear standing between
anyone’s happiness especially when a child
is involved. I hate seeing a child grow up
without a father. I know to some people it
matters not, but to me it matters alot.
“What you are asking of me is very
outrageous, i can’t do it. Moreover they are
not living with me and i can’t take you to
her house” he explained seriously,
“Then invite her to yours or somewhere
conducive for us to meet” i insisted.
“Meet over what?”, “and what exactly do
you expect me to tell her huh?, that my
fiancee want’s to see her, you are very
insensitive to another person’s plight, you
only think about yourself which isn’t good.”
“I understood and was reasonable with you
when you were virtually living with Samuel,
why can’t you respect my feelings?, infact i
can’t stand you this evening, i’m leaving” he
poured out angrily, stood up and left the
room, while i silently reflected over his
words.
“Oh my God, he just accused me of being
insensitive and selfish. Is he right?” i
gasped and wondered.
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Mum ran into my room few minutes later,
with concern written all over her face,
“Hope you weren’t hard on him?” she
curiously asked, while i picked my nose.
“The poor boy is in bad shape, looking very
troubled and sad in the sitting room. Tell
me, what did you say to him?” she inquired
seriously.
“I only asked to see his daughter before
deciding anything, but he suddenly grew
very intense and annoying. Imagine the
boldness” I complained to Mum, who calmly
sat beside me, held my left hand and
smiled at me.
“You should have been more understanding
and diplomatic with your request. Go talk to
him dear, I believe you guys can sort things
out or are you changing your mind about
him already?” She asked. I rolled my eyes
and smiled at her.
“Oh mum don’t ask me that question, but
the truth is that i can’t help but feel for the
child and her mother. I can’t imagine what
he told the poor girl before doing the deed
which got her pregnant” I explained.
“You are right my dear” she said with a
nod, “You are always very considerate of
other people’s feelings” she said softly. I
smiled,
“But Emmanuel just accused me of being
selfish and insensitive” i murmured,
“Oh please, go and settle with him jare” she
stood up and dragged me to the sitting
room, where Emmanuel sat with a drawn
face. I quietly sat beside him, mum smiled
and left us alone.
“I’m very sorry for being rude, i never
intended to disrespect you nor hurt your
feelings, but as your future wife it’s my
duty to know everything about you and i
believe i have every right to know your
daughter and her mother, please don’t deny
that to me, i beg of you” I pleaded calmly
with all my heart. He looked away
thoughtfully, breathed deeply and stared
into my eyes.
“Alright your wish will be granted, you leave
me with no choice than to make it happen,
but i do have a very bad feeling about it”
he said with a forced smile, while i heaved
a sigh of relief.
“I will invite her to my apartment in town on
Saturday, but i will be here on Friday
evening to pick you up” He added.
“No dear, i’ll prefer you come on Saturday
morning so i can bring my school things
along” i requested humbly.
“Alright i will be here very early on
Saturday” he accepted with a dry smile.
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“It wasn’t that hard after all, was it?” mum
asked with a smile as soon as he left. I
rolled my eyes and ran to the kitchen
without answering her, praying silently that
things work out between Emmanuel and i,
because with the direction things were
heading, i really was a bit scared of my
future with him.
Nervously, i waited for Saturday which
slowly approached like a snail. I woke up
that fateful day with a huge boil under my
armpit.
Creepy isn’t it?
-To be continued-