ERRONEOUS WAY TO LOVE pt25
8PM
Mariam walked into my room with a calm
smile on her face. I really wasn’t happy
seeing her that evening but i couldn’t deny
her access into my room because she was
like a sister to me even though i felt she no
longer was watching my back.
“I’m just coming from Samuel’s room” she
muttered as she sat on my bed. I carried my
teddy bear, played with it and ignored her
comment.
“I don’t understand you anymore, you are
very obnoxious these days” she added. I
scoffed and rolled my eyes,
“Oh please” i murmured, while she stared at
me and shook her head,
“I can’t believe you are allowing
Emmanuel to spoil the sweet relationship
you enjoy with Samuel, think my dear,
think! She cautioned as if she was my
mother. I dropped my teddy bear and
looked up at her seriously.
“Did Samuel tell you how he humiliated and
almost hit me hours ago, simply because he
saw Emmanuel arguing with me. Would i be
arguing with Emmanuel if i was giving him
the green light eeh? Abeg leave me jor,
infact i’m tired of this relationship, i want
to be left alone” i poured out bitterly, while
she listened to my outburst attentively with
both hands on her jaw. Her face coloured
with disbelief and surprise.
“I can’t believe all i’m hearing, Mary i really
do think you are under a strong influence,
come on get a hold of yourself and put
yourself in his shoes, wouldn’t you have
assumed the worst?” she asked as she drew
near and held my left hand.
“Seriously dear i don’t want to talk about
this anymore, i want to forget about
everything, only God knows my destiny,
nothing i do can change it” i murmured
seriously with pain in my heart. She
shrugged and stood up in resignation.
“Good night dear friend, let me go and sleep
jare” she murmured and left silently.
7AM THE NEXT DAY
I sang God’s praises as i prepared for 8am
sunday mass. I woke up that morning very
refreshed, bright, happy and in high spirit
without actually knowing the reason.
I soon heard gentle knocks on my door as i
arranged my hair. I quietly opened my door
and held my breathe when i saw
Samuel standing on my door-way and
staring hopefully at me. I really wasn’t
expecting him but i equally wasn’t surprised
to see him. I knew he’d come to beg sooner
or later.
I forced out a smile and made way for him
to enter my room.
“Happy Sunday” i polietly greeted.
“There isn’t anything happy about this
Sunday, anyway i came to apologize, i’m
sorry for what happened yesterday, please
forgive me” he atoned without looking at
me, as if he was ashamed of what he was
doing, which made me ignore him and
continue with ‘my church preparation’.
“Baby please let’s not allow that guy or
anything to come between us. I know i over-
reacted yesterday and i do apologize for it”
he added solemnly.
I turned, faced him, drew closer and held
his hands,
“You said many hurtful things yesterday
which got me thinking about our
relationship, anyway i only have one
question” i quietly murmured as i searched
his face curiously,
“What is it my love?” he asked quietly. I
breathed deeply and continued
“I know you hardly lie to me because i
haven’t given you any reason to do such,
now look me in the eyes and tell me you do
trust me” i prayed. But my request as
simple as it was, really drew out a little
frown from his face. He instantly looked
down and murmured something inaudible.
“Speak up dear and please look at me” i
pleaded hopefully.
“Baby i can’t lie over such trifle request,
please let’s settle our differences first. We
can talk about this subject later” he
answered quietly while my face instantly
fell.
“There is no relationship without love, no
love without trust, i can’t continue with this
till you start to trust me again. I suggest
you go back and build your trust” i
requested calmly with a little confidence
and air.
“What!” he exclaimed loudly in disbelief and
total shock. The fire in his eyes sparkled
like a burning dry bush. I instantly backed
away in order not to get burnt by his fury.
“I’m off to church” i said quietly as i backed
away from him. He quickly held me
strongly, hit his head twice with his left
hand and bit his lips as he struggled with
himself.
“You brought happiness into my life, now
you are taking it away” he accused,
“Is that what lovers do to each other eeh?”
“why are you doing this to me, why are you
behaving like a fusspot? are you now
doubting my love? Please don’t turn me
into a bitter person” he prayed sorrowfully.
I instantly felt guilty, terrible and
remorseful. I snatched my hand from his
grasp and sat on my bed, covering my face
with my palms.
“You know sometimes our faith is tested
with tempting issues, please don’t let our
relationship crumble over this little
problem. I could have walked away, cried
my heart out and forgotten about you but i
didn’t. I easily could have waited for you to
apologize, but instead i buried my pride
and did the opposite. My dear what more
prove do you seek concerning my love” he
poured out solemnly while my heart and
eyes melted.
He knelt by my side and slowly placed his
head on mine, breathing heavily as he
waited for me to say something.
“Alright i have heard you. Let’s continue
like we used to. We both had a terrible
dream yesterday that’s all, let’s forget
about it” i murmured and held him tightly.
He said nothing, his happiness
overwhelming him. He was a boy so much
in love with me, with a kind of passion
which could make any guy stupid.
Anyway i was very glad to still have him
under my control.
_______
Days passed by without Emmanuel showing
up nor disturbing my life. I knew perhaps
he kept away because he had a very
demanding Job.
Samuel and i used the opportunity to work
on our relationship.
He was always by my side as if he was my
shadow. I felt he still was very suspicious
and doubtful about my loyalty, but i
pretended not to notice. But what happened
on Monday, a week later was something i
wouldn’t forget in a hurry. It was the day
my past and present met and fought for
supremacy.
A day Samuel and Emmanuel confronted
each other in my room.
The earth shook, my head ached and my
heart bled.
Oh what a terribly day it was!
-To continued-
smile on her face. I really wasn’t happy
seeing her that evening but i couldn’t deny
her access into my room because she was
like a sister to me even though i felt she no
longer was watching my back.
“I’m just coming from Samuel’s room” she
muttered as she sat on my bed. I carried my
teddy bear, played with it and ignored her
comment.
“I don’t understand you anymore, you are
very obnoxious these days” she added. I
scoffed and rolled my eyes,
“Oh please” i murmured, while she stared at
me and shook her head,
“I can’t believe you are allowing
Emmanuel to spoil the sweet relationship
you enjoy with Samuel, think my dear,
think! She cautioned as if she was my
mother. I dropped my teddy bear and
looked up at her seriously.
“Did Samuel tell you how he humiliated and
almost hit me hours ago, simply because he
saw Emmanuel arguing with me. Would i be
arguing with Emmanuel if i was giving him
the green light eeh? Abeg leave me jor,
infact i’m tired of this relationship, i want
to be left alone” i poured out bitterly, while
she listened to my outburst attentively with
both hands on her jaw. Her face coloured
with disbelief and surprise.
“I can’t believe all i’m hearing, Mary i really
do think you are under a strong influence,
come on get a hold of yourself and put
yourself in his shoes, wouldn’t you have
assumed the worst?” she asked as she drew
near and held my left hand.
“Seriously dear i don’t want to talk about
this anymore, i want to forget about
everything, only God knows my destiny,
nothing i do can change it” i murmured
seriously with pain in my heart. She
shrugged and stood up in resignation.
“Good night dear friend, let me go and sleep
jare” she murmured and left silently.
7AM THE NEXT DAY
I sang God’s praises as i prepared for 8am
sunday mass. I woke up that morning very
refreshed, bright, happy and in high spirit
without actually knowing the reason.
I soon heard gentle knocks on my door as i
arranged my hair. I quietly opened my door
and held my breathe when i saw
Samuel standing on my door-way and
staring hopefully at me. I really wasn’t
expecting him but i equally wasn’t surprised
to see him. I knew he’d come to beg sooner
or later.
I forced out a smile and made way for him
to enter my room.
“Happy Sunday” i polietly greeted.
“There isn’t anything happy about this
Sunday, anyway i came to apologize, i’m
sorry for what happened yesterday, please
forgive me” he atoned without looking at
me, as if he was ashamed of what he was
doing, which made me ignore him and
continue with ‘my church preparation’.
“Baby please let’s not allow that guy or
anything to come between us. I know i over-
reacted yesterday and i do apologize for it”
he added solemnly.
I turned, faced him, drew closer and held
his hands,
“You said many hurtful things yesterday
which got me thinking about our
relationship, anyway i only have one
question” i quietly murmured as i searched
his face curiously,
“What is it my love?” he asked quietly. I
breathed deeply and continued
“I know you hardly lie to me because i
haven’t given you any reason to do such,
now look me in the eyes and tell me you do
trust me” i prayed. But my request as
simple as it was, really drew out a little
frown from his face. He instantly looked
down and murmured something inaudible.
“Speak up dear and please look at me” i
pleaded hopefully.
“Baby i can’t lie over such trifle request,
please let’s settle our differences first. We
can talk about this subject later” he
answered quietly while my face instantly
fell.
“There is no relationship without love, no
love without trust, i can’t continue with this
till you start to trust me again. I suggest
you go back and build your trust” i
requested calmly with a little confidence
and air.
“What!” he exclaimed loudly in disbelief and
total shock. The fire in his eyes sparkled
like a burning dry bush. I instantly backed
away in order not to get burnt by his fury.
“I’m off to church” i said quietly as i backed
away from him. He quickly held me
strongly, hit his head twice with his left
hand and bit his lips as he struggled with
himself.
“You brought happiness into my life, now
you are taking it away” he accused,
“Is that what lovers do to each other eeh?”
“why are you doing this to me, why are you
behaving like a fusspot? are you now
doubting my love? Please don’t turn me
into a bitter person” he prayed sorrowfully.
I instantly felt guilty, terrible and
remorseful. I snatched my hand from his
grasp and sat on my bed, covering my face
with my palms.
“You know sometimes our faith is tested
with tempting issues, please don’t let our
relationship crumble over this little
problem. I could have walked away, cried
my heart out and forgotten about you but i
didn’t. I easily could have waited for you to
apologize, but instead i buried my pride
and did the opposite. My dear what more
prove do you seek concerning my love” he
poured out solemnly while my heart and
eyes melted.
He knelt by my side and slowly placed his
head on mine, breathing heavily as he
waited for me to say something.
“Alright i have heard you. Let’s continue
like we used to. We both had a terrible
dream yesterday that’s all, let’s forget
about it” i murmured and held him tightly.
He said nothing, his happiness
overwhelming him. He was a boy so much
in love with me, with a kind of passion
which could make any guy stupid.
Anyway i was very glad to still have him
under my control.
_______
Days passed by without Emmanuel showing
up nor disturbing my life. I knew perhaps
he kept away because he had a very
demanding Job.
Samuel and i used the opportunity to work
on our relationship.
He was always by my side as if he was my
shadow. I felt he still was very suspicious
and doubtful about my loyalty, but i
pretended not to notice. But what happened
on Monday, a week later was something i
wouldn’t forget in a hurry. It was the day
my past and present met and fought for
supremacy.
A day Samuel and Emmanuel confronted
each other in my room.
The earth shook, my head ached and my
heart bled.
Oh what a terribly day it was!
-To continued-
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