ERRONEOUS WAY TO LOVE pt30
“Yes Mary” he murmured, holding my face
with both hands as he stared into my eyes,
“You owe me this chance and a whole lot,
so let’s give it another trial at least till i
finish my degree exams and if things
doesn’t still improve between us, you can
then leave for good” he added seriously,
while i swallowed hard with a deeply
coloured face.
There was fear, uncertainty and disbelief in
my eyes as i silently stared back at him. I
lost my voice that moment because his
decision totally disoriented me, though in
all honesty i owed him that benefit.
“Seriously, what do i do now?” i wondered
helplessly.
“Samuel won’t let me go and there stood
Emmanuel behind, breathing down my neck
with fire and passion. I truly felt very
committed to Samuel but my body yearned
for Emmanuel, leaving my spirit utterly
confused and my soul lost.
I really wasn’t a girl who could afford
dating two guys at the same time,
something i do detest with passion, but i
now found myself heading towards that
dangerous path.
6:30pm
I was lying on my bed, reading a christian
book on spiritual growth to calm my nerves
when my phone rang. I dropped my
book and glanced at my phone, it was
Emmanuel calling,
“Hi i’m in front of your lodge, can you be
able to come out?, the gate-man won’t let
me in” he asked calmly,
“Okay, i’m coming” i replied and hung up.
Minutes later
I calmly walked to his car, opened the front
passenger’s door, entered and sat beside
him.
“How far?” he asked hopefully,
“Fine sha” i replied calmly,
“So how did it go?” he curiously asked,
while i breathed deeply.
“I confessed to him like i promised, but
instead of breaking up or getting angry, he
simply forgave me and begged for us to
continue with the relationship” i explained,
“Holy Moses!” Emmanuel exclaimed,
snapping his fingers in disbelief.
“I seriously don’t know what to do and you
already know the condition i gave you last
night” i added calmly.
He strongly held my left hand forcing me to
stare into his eyes.
“I’’m really way too big to be fighting for
your love with an undergraduate, but i
equally can’t deny what we had last night
was very real. For that reason i will fight to
the end just to have you, and nothing will
stop me either” he murmured seriously,
making me gasp.
The evening breeze blew on us as we stared
at each other silently.
How do i redeem myself?
How do i untangle myself from this rope??
Or should i hang myself with it?? I
wondered deeply.
____________
I really can’t believe he forgave you” he
murmured, breaking the silence between us,
“Yea because he loves me a lot” i replied
proudly, “i know you won’t if you were in his
shoes” i accused. He simply smiled and
said nothing.
“I have to get going, it’s already getting
very late, i shouldn’t be out of my room by
this hour” i said and made to leave, but he
still held me strongly, preventing me from
leaving.
“So what happens to us?” he asked
curiously,
“Emmanuel abeg there is no us, i thought
you promised to wait eternity for me nau?
Just keep waiting even if it means waiting
till next life” i said a bit coldly. My reply
made him loosen his grip. I instantly
snatched my hand.
“Don’t let your confusion ruin your life” he
murmured coldly and looked away. I eyed
him silently before trying once again to
leave his car.
“Mary wait” he commanded calmly. I
obeyed and stopped.
“I really can’t believe you went back to him
after what happened last night between us,
so you will continue the relationship with
him like nothing happened between us abi?”
he asked,
“Please don’t insult me” i coldly replied and
tried to alight from his car, but he quickly
drew forward and grabbed my left hand
once again.
“What if at the end it didn’t work out
between you guys? Can you live with the
memory that you had the opportunity to set
things right and you didn’t??” he asked,
while i kept quiet, thinking over his words.
“I know you do love me, i know i still have
the treasure i took away from you the very
first time we had fun. Your Sam knows
that, he equally knows you don’t love him
as much as you love me. He equally knows
he’s fighting a lost battle, and i think he is
habouring something which you are too
blind to notice. What will you do if he
finally abandons you at a point where there
is no turning back?” he asked. I silently
shook nervously,
“Please Emmanuel stop talking rubbish, you
are hurting my feelings” i murmured with
quivering lips.
“I tell you the truth my dear, for now you
may seem like the perfect choice to him
because he hasn’t yet explored other
possibilities, he is yet to explore the world
my dear. Do you think he will ever forget
the confession you made to him today?? I
tell you, he will never forget nor push it
away from his mind. He simply begged you
because he had no choice, because he had
his dignity to protect. You can doubt me,
but i swear you will remember this moment
in few years coming. I’m a guy and i just
told you how we guys reason. Guys groom
love, we don’t fall for love, but we can fall
for lust. We fight most times just to protect
our pride and not because we are in love”
he poured out while i coloured and shook
immensely. His words were hurting me, but
i couldn’t find the strength to run away, my
ears eagerly listened.
I have explored the world and returned
because i discovered how unique you are,
can you swear he will return when he
graduates and stays away from you for
sometime, with the memory of your exploits
buried in his head?? He asked.
“I can’t lie to you my dear, i know we both
love each other, but do forget the silly
remark i made about waiting eternity for
you. I can only hopefully wait two more
weeks for you to think over all i said and
decide if to continue with him or start all
over with me. That’s all i can say for now
my dear, so please don’t hurt our future. He
concluded and prayed.
I breathed deeply, summoned up my
strength, and ran out of his car without
even saying good night to him.
“I now have only two weeks to make the
final decision and choose between the guy i
love and the guy i owe my happiness, which
way??” i wondered tearfully as i ran to my
room that fateful evening…
-To be Continued-
with both hands as he stared into my eyes,
“You owe me this chance and a whole lot,
so let’s give it another trial at least till i
finish my degree exams and if things
doesn’t still improve between us, you can
then leave for good” he added seriously,
while i swallowed hard with a deeply
coloured face.
There was fear, uncertainty and disbelief in
my eyes as i silently stared back at him. I
lost my voice that moment because his
decision totally disoriented me, though in
all honesty i owed him that benefit.
“Seriously, what do i do now?” i wondered
helplessly.
“Samuel won’t let me go and there stood
Emmanuel behind, breathing down my neck
with fire and passion. I truly felt very
committed to Samuel but my body yearned
for Emmanuel, leaving my spirit utterly
confused and my soul lost.
I really wasn’t a girl who could afford
dating two guys at the same time,
something i do detest with passion, but i
now found myself heading towards that
dangerous path.
6:30pm
I was lying on my bed, reading a christian
book on spiritual growth to calm my nerves
when my phone rang. I dropped my
book and glanced at my phone, it was
Emmanuel calling,
“Hi i’m in front of your lodge, can you be
able to come out?, the gate-man won’t let
me in” he asked calmly,
“Okay, i’m coming” i replied and hung up.
Minutes later
I calmly walked to his car, opened the front
passenger’s door, entered and sat beside
him.
“How far?” he asked hopefully,
“Fine sha” i replied calmly,
“So how did it go?” he curiously asked,
while i breathed deeply.
“I confessed to him like i promised, but
instead of breaking up or getting angry, he
simply forgave me and begged for us to
continue with the relationship” i explained,
“Holy Moses!” Emmanuel exclaimed,
snapping his fingers in disbelief.
“I seriously don’t know what to do and you
already know the condition i gave you last
night” i added calmly.
He strongly held my left hand forcing me to
stare into his eyes.
“I’’m really way too big to be fighting for
your love with an undergraduate, but i
equally can’t deny what we had last night
was very real. For that reason i will fight to
the end just to have you, and nothing will
stop me either” he murmured seriously,
making me gasp.
The evening breeze blew on us as we stared
at each other silently.
How do i redeem myself?
How do i untangle myself from this rope??
Or should i hang myself with it?? I
wondered deeply.
____________
I really can’t believe he forgave you” he
murmured, breaking the silence between us,
“Yea because he loves me a lot” i replied
proudly, “i know you won’t if you were in his
shoes” i accused. He simply smiled and
said nothing.
“I have to get going, it’s already getting
very late, i shouldn’t be out of my room by
this hour” i said and made to leave, but he
still held me strongly, preventing me from
leaving.
“So what happens to us?” he asked
curiously,
“Emmanuel abeg there is no us, i thought
you promised to wait eternity for me nau?
Just keep waiting even if it means waiting
till next life” i said a bit coldly. My reply
made him loosen his grip. I instantly
snatched my hand.
“Don’t let your confusion ruin your life” he
murmured coldly and looked away. I eyed
him silently before trying once again to
leave his car.
“Mary wait” he commanded calmly. I
obeyed and stopped.
“I really can’t believe you went back to him
after what happened last night between us,
so you will continue the relationship with
him like nothing happened between us abi?”
he asked,
“Please don’t insult me” i coldly replied and
tried to alight from his car, but he quickly
drew forward and grabbed my left hand
once again.
“What if at the end it didn’t work out
between you guys? Can you live with the
memory that you had the opportunity to set
things right and you didn’t??” he asked,
while i kept quiet, thinking over his words.
“I know you do love me, i know i still have
the treasure i took away from you the very
first time we had fun. Your Sam knows
that, he equally knows you don’t love him
as much as you love me. He equally knows
he’s fighting a lost battle, and i think he is
habouring something which you are too
blind to notice. What will you do if he
finally abandons you at a point where there
is no turning back?” he asked. I silently
shook nervously,
“Please Emmanuel stop talking rubbish, you
are hurting my feelings” i murmured with
quivering lips.
“I tell you the truth my dear, for now you
may seem like the perfect choice to him
because he hasn’t yet explored other
possibilities, he is yet to explore the world
my dear. Do you think he will ever forget
the confession you made to him today?? I
tell you, he will never forget nor push it
away from his mind. He simply begged you
because he had no choice, because he had
his dignity to protect. You can doubt me,
but i swear you will remember this moment
in few years coming. I’m a guy and i just
told you how we guys reason. Guys groom
love, we don’t fall for love, but we can fall
for lust. We fight most times just to protect
our pride and not because we are in love”
he poured out while i coloured and shook
immensely. His words were hurting me, but
i couldn’t find the strength to run away, my
ears eagerly listened.
I have explored the world and returned
because i discovered how unique you are,
can you swear he will return when he
graduates and stays away from you for
sometime, with the memory of your exploits
buried in his head?? He asked.
“I can’t lie to you my dear, i know we both
love each other, but do forget the silly
remark i made about waiting eternity for
you. I can only hopefully wait two more
weeks for you to think over all i said and
decide if to continue with him or start all
over with me. That’s all i can say for now
my dear, so please don’t hurt our future. He
concluded and prayed.
I breathed deeply, summoned up my
strength, and ran out of his car without
even saying good night to him.
“I now have only two weeks to make the
final decision and choose between the guy i
love and the guy i owe my happiness, which
way??” i wondered tearfully as i ran to my
room that fateful evening…
-To be Continued-
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